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[chomiji]

You know, basically life is OK. My job may drive me bug-f$#@! crazy, and the Mr. works too much and won't take his health seriously, but I can buy books and manga when I want them, my marriage is pretty damn good otherwise, and our kid does her homework without being told.

Still, there's something about discovering, at a routine dental appointment, that you have a cracked filling that may, in fact, also be hiding a cracked tooth, and so you may have to have yet another crown (which would be crown #5), that makes it feel like life sucks.

That is all. Good night.

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[b3nitora.livejournal.com]

I will trade you! Your crowns for my spine! :) I wish a crown would fix my spine! I have had many dental things done to me, I wanna say NEVER GO TO A DENTAL STUDENT! I had a lot of work done at the Ohio State University, really good place to go for your heart and for cancer, but a really bad place to go to for dental work! I've been trying to hunt down the guy that 'fixed' my mouth so I can best him with a baseball bat. I feel for you, things of the toothy matter, I HATE THEM! I would rather have spine surgery again (well I will anyway, but still...)then have even a novicaine shot! *rocks back and fourth and cries*

[chomiji]

There, there ... >HUGS<

My dentist is a sly, somewhat lazy guy about my own age, but he has a gentle touch - even my dentist-phobic husband says so. But I hate the idea of him removing most of another tooth from my mouth ... all these robo-teeth I've got already! (One of the crowns I already have is a double - they replaced two teeth at once.) It's all the old fillings I had put in during my teens ... right after my braces came off, I got a lot of cavities in my molars. Nowadays, with sealants, it wouldn't have happened!

So what's the deal with your spine?

[b3nitora.livejournal.com]

Sleeding accident + Spinal Stenosis + 7 years = DDD & Surgery
I hardly have any disc tissue in my spine.
Heres the full legnth version lol:
When I was 17 I went sleeding down an insanely steep hill (wich is usually covered in large, painfull looking rocks) and it was next to a parking lot. Well, the snow was covering those concrete bumpers they have in parking spots and when I hit it at the bottom of the hill I went up! I was told it was something like 15 feet! I wouldnt doubt it, I clearing saw the top of someones car and was afraid I was going to hit it, wich I was close to. I slammed on the ground still in my slead, still sitting upright, holding on for dear life LOL! I probably wouldve been better off falling a different way and breaking a limb. I couldnt move for a minute, then I just kinda flopped over and I was fine. Thats what it started...a few weeks went by and my back was killing me! My doctor said I had a cyst on my spine...I was like I fell really really far and thats it?! So I had surgury on that and I was like my back is still killing me! They (doctors) pretty much were like blah whatever for a few years, but I persitantly bitched about it the entire time and FINALLY a doctor starts getting the idea...but it didnt last long. I just had an MRI and it was only the top half of my spine and it was a bunch of squishy discs and he told me I had degenerative disc disease and then a few more years went by...last August. I could not move and I cried and I felt like I got hit by a car and all I did was wake up for the day. So my dad carrys me out and we go to the ER! I got a whole MRI and it turns out that I have AN ASSLOAD of #*CKED UP discs but one in particular was pressing up against my spinal cord because apparently I have this crap called spinal stenosis in the lower part of my spine...pretty much means the spinal canal is small as hell...and too squishy of a disc = paralyzed. So I had surgery and I felt alright for about a week and both me and the doctors knew it would start again we just were hoping it wasnt going to be so quick. I have a spine doctor appointment comming up...shes going to cry.

[chomiji]

Oh my God, what a story! You poor thing. I guess that's why you're living at home? One of my sisters-in-law wrecked up some disks without even knowing it - she's very stoic and had been very active - they travel a lot and also they like to go kayaking. She's better, but it was quite bad for a while there.

[b3nitora.livejournal.com]

Thats the short and shorter version of it LOL! I wrote a whole HUGE LJ entry in my journal about my stay in the hospital, it was quite amusing...except for the guy whom I woke up to staring at me from my doorway. I remember him well (he was not a hallucination for all the drugs...and there was alot) because he wheeled me around the hospital one day...this was before I thought he was creepy LOLOL! The worse part, by far, was the doctor himself...what an asshole! And when I popped one of my sutures out and gushed blood everywhere...wait...that was cool. ^_^ I have a wicked scar too! Its a foot long and whenever someone catches a glimpse of it and ask what happened to me, I always make up some ellaborate story. Once it was scrapnal, one time I told someone it was from being in Nam (vietnam)...I could go on and on...its very amusing...I miss the Fentanyl patches LOL!

[b3nitora.livejournal.com]

Yep, thats exactly why I live at home, Im not allowed to be alone incase I fall and screw my spine up even more. I never say how much worse could it get, cause whenever I do, it does. Second reason I live at home is because of my lack of drivers license for the next few months.

[chomiji]

So what're your plans long term? Do they think your back will ever resolve? Sounds really bad ...   :-(

[b3nitora.livejournal.com]

Well, long term, I want to go to college and further myself...Im hoping it will keep my mind off my spine. Ive been trying not to have to get on disability, but Im pretty sure its going to come to just that because I can't do half of the things you are required to at your everyday jobs (like lifting over 40 pound, standing for long periods of time..walking even..Im pretty much limited by everying incuding driving). I've already been told by my spine doctor that I will be in pain for the rest of my life and it will only get worse. There is nothing they can do to reverse what has been done. Now the neurosurgeon that did my lumbectomy told me this: I could either have to get a fusion of my total lumbar region wich would confine me to a wheelchair forever, or since the spine is so calcified that it would over time fuse itself. So he decided to let it fuse itself since doing a fusion can be rather dangerous and since I am so young he didnt want me to be in a wheelchair until it becomes most critical. My spine is and I quote "that of a 60 - 80 year old" and that I "will be in a wheelchair by 40." Sooooooo Im pretty much screwed...they can't fix it but they CAN keep me from becoming paralyzed. I get shivers and flashbacks just by looking at sleads...I shall never slead again...EVER! It is really bad, but I try to keep on the bright side of things...could be worse things that can happen to me...and at least Im not a crackwhore! Yay! :) :)

[chomiji]

Is there a college near your home that you can get to easily? That sounds like the best plan. A desk job would be much better for you with the physical issues. Is there any way that you can get some part time desk-type work at the same time, like being a telephone receptionist? We have tons of that type of work around here, but I don't know the situation where you are.

I have this issue that I always want to solve everyone's problems somehow ... you'd think I'd get over it after all these years ...